first off, puns are intended, as always. do you know that feeling when you are all by yourself, living in your own world and have difficulties relating to or communicating with others? it is hard to describe but it is like you are constantly engaging in a sort of inner monologue, talking to and arguing with yourself about various things that run through your mind. no, i am not schizophrenic, it is rather the result of the fear of getting hurt when you actually articulate your feelings. so i keep talking to myself… and yes, life is fragile… (that is completely out of context, but i had the sudden urge to write it.)
fall is is full swing. it is raining cats and dogs, it is gray and cold outside. and my all-year fall depression is about to start… i hate waking up in the middle of the night (usually between 4 and 5 am) and not being able to fall asleep again for at least an hour… i cannot express how much i miss the bike rides in gorgeous summer sun and a mild breeze touching my skin…
Fall isn’t all that bad, Halloween is just around the corner, then there are all these festivities to
liven things up. The weather is a bit of a calming factor, but I think of it as a time to reflect on things
and prepare for a new year that will soon be upon us. Not to mention, sometimes its just nice to be able to
“get away” from it all.
-gil