Archive for August, 2004

trivial trivia

Monday, August 2nd, 2004

things you always wanted to know about me (or you did not) and were afraid ask… nevermind, it is refreshing from time to time to ask yourself the question, “who am i?”. it is a rheorical question, of couse. due to my background in psychoanalysis i define myself mainly in relation to what i want or rather what others want from me. so, what do i want?

  • in high school i wanted to become a quantum physicist. somehow i abdoned that idea and ended up in the humanities.
  • i always wanted to do a PhD, no matter what the field of studies would be.
  • before getting interesting in cycling and mountain biking, i considered any form of physical exercise to be a nuisance.
  • cycling gives me — apart from an unique focus — what i call “pain in pleasure”.
  • i am not a morning person, so a 9 to 5 job would be a nightmare.

well, that is all for now, i guess. those of you who instant messaged with me recently know what i am currently up to, what i am thinking about. it is too early to devote an entire blog entry to that specific topic because i need to contemplate that notion a little more. so stay tuned.

wind of change?

Sunday, August 1st, 2004

as my readership expands i figure that i have changed the style of my blog entries. i think i have become more careful as far as the topics of my posts are concerned. somehow i feel that i cannot be as honest as i was like a year ago. i am quite sensitive about critisms or attacks regarding myself and who i am. i learned that the internet is a cruel place and that my honesty is an easy target for abuse. but after all this is my blog and it is completely up to me what i post and what i don’t. i try to be selective, to find a balance between how i really feel and the way i put it into words. i observed that i can be misunderstood easily, especially by people who do not know me in person. so i am more cautious now… but maybe this is going to change as well… i do not know.