it is amazing how my mood seems to depend on the weather right now. as long as it is hot and sunny, my mood is bright and spirits are high but once it starts raining and gets cooler, i experience slight bouts of “depression”… not really a full blown depression, i simply feel sort of down. what makes matters even worse that a person who i hold dear and who is close to me is very ill. it is again that helpless feeling when medicine cannot do any good anymore, when it is simply too late. that is the reason why i do not believe in God… if there were a God he would not allow good people to become terminally ill. but that happens all the time… i know that may be naive. however, so many bad things happen to ordinary, good folks and this is kind of unfair. it makes me sad.
np: Mylene Farmer - Comme J’Ai Mal
It is interesting how the weather can affect our moods. Though I enjoy the quietness that the world is in when it is rainy and or cool. There is a sort of tranquility when the world is muffled in a gentle rain or cleansed in a downpour. Listen to the rain, and in the sound of it all, you will find an inner peace that will settle the soul.
My thoughts and prayers go out to you and the one you hold dear.
-gil