the ongoing work

what suprises me on a daily basis is how actually the analysis of a given movie turns out in the end. i usually watch the movie several times, take some notes and transcribe the dialogues of the most important scenes; important to prove my thesis or whatever. while doing so i mostly have a rough concept in my mind where the analysis is going and what i actally want to say, but nothing concrete… just some idea, yeah, maybe that would fit in here or that might be an explanation why this is so. the creative part and the real analysis is done in a second or even third step when i go through my notes, transcripts and screencaptures and figure out what aspects of Lacan’s or Zizek’s theories would fit in there. and by doing so i usually discover some deeper meaning, something that was not there when i first made the mental concept. this really surprises me and actually keeps me going. Lacan actually would disagree… he would say that the “deeper meaning” was always there but i just did not see it… so the truth is out there… we just have to look for it… look for it very closely.