options

i have to move on with life although it’s hard doing so. there are some open questions that need to be answered soon so that i can make a decision what to do. there are several options but secretly i really favor only one of them (or so tells me my gut feeling). that option is the only one i can live with right now. maybe this is going to change in the next few days, who knows. i do not want to quit because i am not a quitter and failure is not an option. what i want is to get the damn job over with ASAP and get the hell out of there. if only i could find the right focus that would be an easy thing to do. i will try, of course.