i’m gonna change my life. yes, indeed. i am going to base any upcoming decision partly on what i feel instead of what my mind tells me. otherwise i’ll never end up doing something i actually can live with and be (at least to some degree) happy about it. i need to become sure about my future, what i really want to do - apart from ending up unemployed. do i really want to teach at university? i don’t know. do i have a shot at it? maybe, but i am not sure. so what do i want? first off, get this friggin’ PhD and then? get a job that does not involve traveling around the world (i hate that!) but gives me some kind of feeling that i am doing something useful…