what i mean is - of course - the year 2003. only one day left to make a difference, to make 2003 something special - but i rather believe that the difference has already been made… so, i guess i’ll enjoy new year’s eve 2003 and be thankful for a good year!
np: Ayreon - Chaos
discovered a new genre: progressive rock and space metal. from time to time i have to look for something new to listen to. in spring 2003 i stumbled upon Avantasia, the metal opera: power metal at it finest! now i moved one step ahead to explore the “space opera” Ayreon. it’s a blend of prog rock, prog metal and space metal. great pieces of music, no doubt about that.
np: Ayreon - Dawn Of A Million Souls
i am reading Freud’s “Das Unbehagen in der Kultur” right now and well, i find it quite intriguing. he says that happiness is impossible. we cannot be happy because culture demands too much sacrifices of our drives - he even says that the universe lacks a no concept like happiness. or as Our Lady Peace put it, “happiness is not a fish you can catch”. so, what are you supposed to answer when someone asks you if you are happy? i guess lacan would say happiness is the object a. you want it so badly but you can never have it. it’s impossible.
one of the real joys of the holiday season is the opportunity to say “thank you” and to wish you the very best for the new year.
after my recent bout of insomnia i am finally tired. it started in the cinema last saturday during Lord of the Rings, part III. halfway through the movie i started yawning and it got pretty worse by the end. i suppose that had little to do with the film per se (it was really awesome!) but rather with my recent agitation. i am glad that things are about to settle down now. just in time for “the season” which is supposed to be quiet…
i was offline for a few days to get myself together - again. this is highly unusual for me but i guess it was necessary. (btw. did i mention that i actually hate chrismas?) got the “official” confirmation of the seminar i am going to teach in summer semester 2004. indeed, the fun has just begun… and i really look forward to it!
darn, i really have to find out what causes the tachycardia i’ve been experiencing for more than a week now. i suspect it is caused by an overactive thyroid gland; been taking thyroid hormones for a few years now. it’s like my metabolism switched to overdrive…
well, that’s the most famous phrase of Dr Frasier Crane. finally i managed to get through with Babylon 5 and now it’s time for the first season of Frasier, my all-time favorite shrink sitcom. (is there even another one with shrinks? don’t think so..) genereally speaking, i do not like sitcoms because of the canned laughter. i believe it should be up to me to laugh when something is considered to be funny. this is like Zizek always says, “the other is laughing / enjoying for me so that i don’t have to”. but Frasier is ok, it’s sophisticated humor and plenty of puns make up for that “flaw”… oh dear god, Niles, we’ve stumbled upon hell’s waiting room!
oh well, what a day and tomorrow’s not gonna be less busy. always the same before christmas, trying to get all the things done you wanted to do a long time ago. for my part that means to fetch some paper work from the administrative office at university… that’s my last visit to university for this year! as i stated i am about to shift my priorities which actually means that i am going to work over the holidays. it’s just perfect since i hate christmas anyway.
yet another weekend over and well, as usual: same shit, different week. what makes things even worse is the fast that christmas is around the corner and - believe me - i really hate chrismas. went grocery shopping today and they played all those awful christmas songs in the store! then they let you wait for ages at the check out just to make you listend to yet another two or three carols! i lost my belief in christmas years ago - the “magic” of it is gone for good. the only good thing about it is that the darkest months of the year are almost over and things can only get better…