being depressed really sucks. there are so many things to do and i cannot bring myself to get the damn job done. for about two weeks now i am feeling constantly depressed and lacking energy. i wake up with a heavy cloud inside my head that slows down my thinking. i am tired but i can’t fall asleep easily at night and my all-time favorite “hat syndrome” keeps haunting me. i have to force myself to do at least something useful instead of staring out the window into the milky clouds of november fog…