citalopram, anyone?
there is better living through chemistry. i’ve been on medication for almost five years now. generally, i feel pretty well in spring and summer, but fall and winter is more or less like hell. i can’t change my life, i can’t change the problems i am facing (let alone solve them), and my motivation is rather low. i keep telling myself to carry on, to get something done, to try to kick some ass. it’s hard to do so because there is this damn cloud inside my head, covering my thoughs in deep resignation. i need to get the work done, i am supposed to do a presentation on wednesday… i have to force myself to do so… it sucks.