musings of a neurotic mind

cyberpunk is really something intriguing. as my paper is making progress, i discover quite astonishing things… what cyberpunk means, what it involves, how to define it? basically, it boils down to the “fundamental” questions: who are you? where are you from and where are you going? and of course — what do you want?

you know what to say but you don’t know it right now… that describes the “situation” of my current paper best. my literature is mostly in english and i am supposed to write the paper in german. call it a language conflict! in the last five years english became virtually my second “mother” language, so it’s sometimes really hard to express things in german, because the english is there in my mind.

speaking of the mind, the great adventures are no longer “out there” in outer space, they can be found in cyberspace, with is basically a metaphor for our psyche. need to contemplate this notion.

np: Evanescense – Bring Me To Life

in the course of writing my “little” research paper i decided to (re-)read the essential literature: “terminal identity” by Scott Bukatman, “cyberspace, cyberbodies, cyberpunk” by Mike Featherstone and Roger Burrows, “cyberpunk and cyberculture” by dani cavallaro… and a few more, but i consider those three titles mentioned to be the most important. and oh yes, tomorrow’s gonna be less bad, as always…

but i am not a shining beacon, at least i hope so. after a few weeks of brainstorming and doing the preliminary stuff for my case study, i guess i am ready to get it down on paper. it’s about time. i have a rough idea what the paper is going to be like, say kind of structure, but i am reluctant to use the term “structure” because i am rather chaotic. well, i can’t start with a few set headlines and then start writing. it’s rather the other way round: i simply start writing and the headlines are the last thing i add. and oh yes, class tomorrow. the last one for this semester.
np: Matchbox Twenty – Cold